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How does one begin a blog post about one topic when another’s firmly on your mind?  I write, not because I have an abundance of time, rather I write because it’s important for me to do this, now, today.

Arizona. For me it holds many memories. I was there the other week, as readers of this blog will know, and I was there several years ago (2005 I believe). That trip, in 2005, was the beginnings of some challenges I’ve alluded to in this blog in the past.  This trip was much different. It was on my own terms, and I did what I wanted to do.

There were many highlights:

  • My first trip to a rock climbing gym! I had a great time! It may not be very ‘touristy’ but I loved the mental challenge as I clung to the holds trying to figure out how to get to the next level and eventually to the top of the route I was climbing. It was great exercise, but like all my favourite exercises, it didn’t feel as such.  I was visiting a friend of mine, and we went together. As I finished one climb my friend exclaimed “Wow you’re fit!” — it was my first time up the climbing wall and I spent probably 10 minutes in one spot just hanging out thinking about climbing, how I’m doing it and how to get to the next level.  I wasn’t tired and was certainly able to just hang there. I loved it. I don’t know when or how to fit this into my insane schedule but eventually I’ll try to fit it in.
  • Hanging out at the Hohokum Historical Monument. It was relaxing, hot hot hot and very quiet and this small historical site captured my imagination. I could picture what it may have been like to live 1000 years ago in that community that was built. It raised questions for me regarding how this history shaped the region and the culture — and how it played a foundational role in the culture that certainly exists there today, particularly among the aboriginal groups.
  • The impression of the priorities and the lifestyles of the residents. I don’t know if this is a ‘highlight’ or more of a profound thing. But as I stepped onto the airplane, I was surrounded by bleached blonds sporting jewels and fake nails. It felt like I was on the wrong plane. But no, that was the community of travellers heading to Phoenix. Phoenix struck me as a ‘car’ city. One where a person simply cannot choose alternate methods of transportation. Following this is that RECYCLING doesn’t seem to exist. I couldn’t believe it. With all the talk of sustainability, and with all the volume of bottled water that each person goes through in a day — or even in just a morning — one would expect that recycling would be paramount. But it simply didn’t seem to exist. That bothered me.
  • Eager sales people — I went shopping and I have never had such eager sales people approach me. Perhaps it’s the recession, perhaps it’s that I was at a huge mall on a Wednesday. But, I had people running out of the stores to try to entice me in to look at their products. Ironically, at the one store where I wanted to try shoes on (for nursing), they ignored me. So no shoes for me. That trip, at least.
  • Pool — it was hot, sunny, relaxing so I certainly spent a great deal of time at the pool relaxing.
  • Dancing — I loved it there. The people were friendly, full of energy and excitement in their dance and they easily recognized that I wasn’t local and grabbed me for a dance. It was a dance culture very unlike here, it didn’t feel flat and uninspired and I didn’t feel like I had to work to get dances as I sometimes have to here, or even in (my beloved) Seattle.

And this brings me to the Goodbye part of this post. I had some delightful dances with several leads. One lead I remember watching as I was standing to the side of the dancefloor. A friend of my host, we were all hanging in the same area — but I hadn’t yet been introduced to him and we hadn’t danced.  A ballroom instructor came up to me to talk dance, and we chatted for a bit. It seems his idea of what makes a great lindy hopper and mine are quite different. While I was watching this one lead, he pointed out several leads that he like (because they were so smooth).  It was funny, I danced with those leads by the end of the night and the reason they looked so smooth is a lack of pulse, and well, inexperience. So while this one person was watching some forgettable leads, I was observing this one lead who was inspired in his dancing.

He certainly had pulse, was able to mix in Charleston at ease into his dancing and the follow he was dancing with had a look of delight on her face — and why wouldn’t she — it was obvious he was a lead well worth dancing with, and he knew how to make her look wonderful on the dance floor.

On this trip, I was in a phase a bit where I didn’t feel like doing work to dance (IE chasing leads to dance with them), and fortunately I didn’t have to. This lead and I did dance that night and it was a delight. It was full of fun, energy, I was given the freedom to play within the confines of the music and he was willing to push things a bit. All things I love. We danced again that night, and it too was a dance that will stand out as a ‘memorable-delightful’ dance.

Sadly, however, this morning I had some terrible news. This same, delightful, lead from Phoenix AZ passed away very suddenly early yesterday morning (Sunday September 13, 2009).  Our meeting was brief, yet I am still saddened for him — also, his friends and his family.  So, for now I’m going to leave this post with a video that highlights another talent of this young guy who’s gone much too soon:

Next post will be the New Mexico Portion of the trip.

… don’t worry, I haven’t vanished, I haven’t stopped posting permanently. I just haven’t had a free second. I’ll try to find time this week or maybe next weekend to write a trip summary post — the individual posts I was describing likely wont happen very quickly. Then I’ll give you my first impressions of nursing school. Tomorrow (er… later today) the real work begins. Last week was orientation for nursing school.

Well, not literally, but it has seemed like I’ve dropped of the blogosphere lately. I’ve been feeling sadly uninspired in my blog posts — if my purpose of this blog is to talk about the stories of my life as I seek to live my life well, I am seeing blog post  topics that fit this idea. How does a person live their life, and do it well — all while having a ‘normal’ life?  And really, for me — what does it mean to live my life well?? All key questions.

I’ve been thinking about some posts, none of which I’ll touch on in this post, but hopefully the inspiration for the topics will remain so that I can come back to them:

  • community and fostering a healthy balanced and growing community
  • sustainable living and how the culture of a region plays a role
  • thoughts on adoption, identity, and further explorations into this topic — what’s the next step?

For right now, though, I’ll leave it there. I’m currently on vacation in Arizona and not really that connected to the internet. I’ve been mulling around blog posts in my brain (if I have time I’ll journal them and transcribe them) and I will try to post some posts when I’m home. Some upcoming topics:

  • My first experience at a rock climbing gym
  • Dancing dancing dancing
  • Exploring a historical monument

Upcoming plans: SHOPPING (this is afterall Arizona –> great shopping), more relaxing by the pool, Tuscon, Grand Canyon, New Mexico, more dancing hopefully.

I’ve definitely needed this vacation and I’m feeling mellow and relaxed. I may not have gotten everything done before school starts, but I will definitely be ready to hit the ground running once I’m home!

So, even if I don’t post again on this trip, I haven’t permanently disappeared. Stay tuned!

‘Yale Stories’

I used to post occasionally about ‘Yale Stories’ that I would have while blues dancing at The Yale on Monday nights.  Sadly I get up too early to go very frequently, and the regular Monday night band has now moved to Wednesday.  So Yale Stories as they were happen much less frequently.

But that doesn’t mean they don’t happen: take buying parts for a hard drive at NCIX a few weeks ago — I had a sales guy offer me a special deal on a printer ‘for beautiful women only’.  And another guy, after watching me for ~15min sidled up to me to say Hi, just as I was leaving.

But sometimes the random encounters happen and a yale story presents itself in the most unexpected way.  Last night, I was running some errands and realized that I didn’t have a couple of ingredients to bake this week’s batch of Amish Friendship Bread (By the way if anyone needs some starter — let me know, I’ve got lots) so I stopped by the grocery store after dropping a friend off.  I got a few things (forgetting a few more so baking still hasn’t happened) and went to stand in line. A guy gets in line behind me, asks me if I have a card for that store (for price discounts). I did. So he asks if he could use it. I let him know that he can and at this point I reach the front of the line, he steps forward, combines his purchase with mine and pays for it all. I’m babbling and confused at this point and don’t know what to say (it could have been a flirting opportunity but I so missed it! Oh well). He said it was thanks for using my discount card, grabbed his purchase and took off.

The cashier and I stood looking at each other completely confused. His purchase, even without my card, would have been about $3. Mine closer to $10 or $12.   Random, but who’s to complain?!?

Sadly, though, it was a prime flirting-practice opportunity and I completely blew it. I apparently don’t do so well at flirting pop quizes. Ah well, I still got groceries for free out of it.

Preparations Continue

As the days progress, I’m getting closer and closer to my last day — from the foreseeable future at least — at my job.  It’s very weird to consider what changes are coming, but I know that they are right to happen, so even though I don’t know how I’m going to pay for living while I’m at school, I’m surprisingly unstressed about it.

I’ve mostly spent my time lately working through my finances — getting caught up on where I spend my money, and I’ve learned a few things like where I need to cut back.  But I need to sort these numbers out so that I can make my case as I appeal my student loan amounts.

Anyhow, I did want to give a short update. I don’t really know what to write about  right now — a bit of a blogging mental block, I suppose.  For my readers here, if you have questions or blog topics you would like me to write about, send your inspiration my way. I’d love to have themes to write about.  So what are you curious about? Have always wanted to ask me? Topic where you wonder where I stand?

For now I’m going to bed — an intense tempo run tonight means my legs are tired and I’m ready to crash!


Don’t you be wasting all your money
On syrup and honey
Cause I’m so eaten up(Cause I’m sweet enough)
Don’t you be using every minute
On making a living
Because we’ve got our love
Listen to me, 1,2,3
Baby, baby, baby spend your time on me

Don’t you be out all night long
Leaving me all alone
Because I, I need your love
Don’t you be spending everyday working away
Because I’m waiting for you
Listen to me, 1,2,3
Baby, baby, baby spend your time on me

Spend it, spend it, spend your time on me
Please baby
Mmmm
Please baby

This is a song that was played at late night at the Seattle Lindy Exchange and it’s one that speaks to me right now.

Just a brief post for the moment with a video for your enjoyment. Perhaps there will be more later.

The insanity has been mounting lately, and it’s reduced my energy to post long posts here. Last week was particularly crazy as I spoke again with my manager. She’s not sure she can fit me in, come fall, so I may not have a job, or it may not happen immediately.  That’s created focus and a bit of worry — though I must admit that I feel so sure about UBC Nursing is the right direction that I’m not flipping out about money as much as I expected I would be. It will all work out.

Anyhow, so yes, crazy to do lists. It’s going to be a recurring theme this month.  Friday, I headed down to Seattle. After the ‘Crossing Borders’ episode, I decided to use Nexus to cross (alone as there wasn’t another nexus holder available), and leave my car in Bellingham. It was nice, I had lots of time to relax, hang out and talk on the phone while I waited for my friends to catch up with me. It helped to relax me before the weekend really began.

I must admit to being so tired at the moment that I don’t know if I have much specific that I want to say about the weekend. It was wondeful — full of fantastic dances, meeting a few new people, getting to know some acquaintances a bit better, and a weekend that was in general a boost to my self confidence.  The bands were all amazing, the feats of acrobatics at the picnic were wonderful (Pics to follow), dancing at Westlake was warm, fun, and always makes me smile. The annual traditions of dance at night, sleep in the day, a group of us skinny dipping in the lake at midnight (for those friends and family who are shocked at this idea, RELAX, it’s pitch black, no one can see anything anyhow — besides, it’s fun and refreshing), all continued as in other years.

All in all, I had a great time. The end of the weekend’s been a little bit intense.  We left without sleeping so I could attend a funeral, and then after that, I went up to UBC to check out textbooks.  I was not really surprised, but slightly annoyed at the price differences between the UBC Bookstore to buy texts when compared with Amazon or Chapters.  So, I bought 7 texts from these two sites (all at least $10-20 cheaper) and 10 others I’ll get as a package (that includes hard copies, electronic copies — VERY handy — and journal subscriptions).  The last few I’ll check into this weekend — I wanted to take care of the ones I’d need in September now, and for January I’ll order in the next little while.

All in all a hectic day, but I’ve ended with baking Amish Friendship Bread (Link to the recipe to be included later). Partly for stress relief (helps me think and relax), partly because of the timing of the recipe, and partly since I wanted a treat! For now, though, it’s time to crash. Work’s going to hurt, especially as I’ve had energy drinks with caffeine this weekend. No coffee, but I’ll still have to deal with the withdrawal.

The boss is back…

My manager’s back in town, so that means that we’ll be having conversations this week. I am now really hoping that I can keep my position — in a part time capacity, because without any income I’m not sure what I’m going to do for money in the fall. I guess I’ll find out. I’m pretty certain that the ‘right’ path will happen. I know that going back to school is the path for me so it will all work out in the end.But in the mean time I’m kind of stressed about it.

All I can do is take it one day at a time.  I’ve realized too, that buying laundry is not going to happen — I need the ready cash to pay for rent etc. But it will all work out, I’m sure of that.

It also modifies my choices — one very kind friend gave me a coupon for dinner tonight so I managed to enjoy a night out with my running friends, at a very nice restaurant but where it didn’t cost me much money. That will be it, though, for eating out this week. I’ll be doing enough of that this weekend.

For now, I just need to finish my to do list, prepare to appeal my student loan results, clean and make sure I’m getting exercise every day. Right now, I’m going to sleep and be ready for another day at work. A brief update, random thoughts, but there you go. The school countdown is on!

Today’s been a fast but long day. After stressing out last night, I woke up at 4:30am (intentionally) to get my 32km (20 mile) run in. Bleary-eyed I made my way to the community centre and we went on out. I realized a few things:

1. Running stupid early is great when it’s that long, that hot and I have a lot to do during the day

2. I need new running shoes

3. I love my post-run naps

4. It’s time to update my music on my running iPod. My poor training partner. The last half of the run was peppered with “Damn, I’ve heard that one already this run!”

5. My VO2 Max was really a Vo2 Peak — I was doing an easy pace and was at the same heart rate as fast my peak heart rate in the testing.

After the run was done I went and had my hair done and then home to pass out and nap — for 5 hours. It was an easy day, I got nothing done that I should have, but I slept and it was great! Afterwards it was time for the Celebration of Light I’ve only seen 3/4 of them this year, so I can’t comment on how Canada compares, but of the 3 that I saw, China tonight was amazing! I loved how they used levels — there were things going on at every level and a viewer could be close or farther away and still have an amazing view of the show. The sky was constantly full. The only disappointment was that the music was quieter tonight than usual so I couldn’t hear it, whereas usually I can.

As I got home I learned of a great contest presented on a blog I just found (I recommend a read)

The blog: Nanny Goats in Panties

The giveaway link is here and it’s for a great set of Rachel Ray Cookware.  So I’m entering the contest. How fun would that be to win!

For now though I’m going to head to bed and it will be lovely to sleep until I wake up — with no alarm!

Money Stresses

As a student, single, living in the city, how is one supposed to make it work? I just found out what my student loan amount will be.  It has me stressed and uncertain. I know I will go forward with school, it’s something i need to do and it will work out in the end, I’m certain of that.  But when student loans only amount to enough to cover tuition and books, how am I supposed to cover rent? hydro? phone? the car that I need to keep? 20 months suddenly seem VERY long.

Something will work out. Bursaries. Student line of credit at the bank. Appeal the decision with the student loans people. Job? I now hope/need more than ever to keep my job. I don’t know exactly how much I could make, that depends on what compensation package I get, or if I get to keep my job.

Sigh. On brighter news, I’ve booked my trip to visit my ‘distraction’. That is going to be a great trip. I will use some set aside money for it, and the last trip before the realities of school set in.

But for now I’m going to relax and take it one day at a time. It will all work out because this is the right direction for my life.

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